Saturday, November 22, 2008

I keep blaming everything ! Help

I don't sing when I was small...I don't know what music is..Although,my dad is a musician, he never give me a chance to get into music when I was small. When the time I grew up, I started get influenced by my friends. Getting know my dad had an old guitar in the storeroom, grabbed it and practice. Not long after,due to my poor self-discipline,lack of motivation and proper learning method. Eventually I give up...



During my high school, I was again, inspired by my friend, so I continued learning the guitar. I know what I want is not the guitar,is the piano. It is just too expensive for me to learn it, I can't afford to buy one piano,not even the course fee..



Years after,I enter my college,still dreaming to play the piano just like other. Never giving it up ! I worked, just hope to earn enough and buy myself a piano. I tried hard on working, giving computer service from scratch just to gain extra penny...Time goes without slowing down,it never wait. After knowing I can hardly earn enough for the piano within short period of time,I...was giving up again..
My sister kept telling me that you can still learn the piano when you work,you may attend the lesson at night. Understandably, you won't have sufficient of time...



When I was about to give up playing the piano, leaving this dream to my next life...I figured out a solution to solve my problem. I got a school loan just to buy the piano! Hoow!? I made it ! I got my first piano ~ For sure, it isn't a good quality piano but that is more than enough ! I was so excited and started my piano journey...



I am supposed practicing it and do my best during my college life,yet I don't practice much. I keep procrastinating it! I don't do my best, I even skip the piano lesson. I am lost...I love music so much,but I don't have direction...Maybe,it is just my another recreation? I hope I can do something more than it...Am I too old to do so? I started at my age 19...Freaking old man ! I know that is the fact...



Now,after reading a post from innit,I have forgotten which post I saw,inspired me again...



Message for my baby:"I know,I shouldn't be complaining and blaming again..But I feel lost,maybe..just an excuse ! Aikss...I want to have a stronger will...in doing anything.And I always love you..!



People,please...Scold me,slap me or wake me up! Instead of appreciating what I have today,I keep blaming and complaining just for procrastinating my task.I have a chance to learn the thing I want,I got no worries,nothing much to bear yet I still the same..I blamed my parents not to give me a chance when I was young...When I have a keyboard,I blamed my dad not putting effort in teaching me keyboard...When I have the piano, I want a better piano,blaming its quality..HELP! what a stupid idiot me !





This is the little boy who inspired me...If I would have a chance - The excuse I always use !









Tears in Heaven - Sungha Jung ( My all time favourite )








Procrastinating is bad for us..I know !

5 comments:

Marccus said...

wow!, that kid really have talent
O.O

Jason Law said...

yea...that's crazy ><"! he is just about 12 year-old = ="

e s t a n c u s said...

Heys. i procrastinate too! Like OMG right? i feel for you.. XD

lets stop procrastinating. tomorrow.

hahahah. jz kiddin.

but that kid is super talented, he's gona grow into the Santana of Korea! :-D

Jason Law said...

hi estancus~yea yea...better stop procrastinating,now >< ! coz tomorrow never ends ~ hahaha..yeaa~damn cool right !?

audrey said...

dear, no matter wht, I'll always be thr to support u.. u noe u've got stg~ jz dun gv up and continue to work on it~ =) dun ever think bout the age, the time, ntg, but the music~ we've been through the same thg~ and I felt happy for u dat u noe wht's happening~and remember wht I said when we'r at gurney facing the sea? about performance, about music? and u went silent~ well, I noe thr's stg inside u struggling~ (jz correct me if I'm wrong XD) n I believe one day u will have the courage to go for it~ jia you dear~ muackz>< I love you too =)

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